Monday morning here. Day 1 of the most long awaited for week in my life... My company initiated free week off from work... yahoo! A whole week of anything and everything that I ever wanted to do, try and accomplish. High expectations, yes but isn't it better to aim high and naturally set yourself up for automatic failure then to just accept that you'll most likely be doing nothing at all? And by nothing at all, I would marathoning a show, possibly taking a peek at that book on my night stand and heck of a lot of pinning. So I guess it's win win either way :) But today I'm actually trying something I have never done but have always wanted to. Brace yourself people, I am currently sitting in the local Starbucks, latte in hand, cozy winter hat adorned, people watching on the sly, typing on my laptop as I write this. Yes, I am living the dream of SAHM/aspiring photographer (or insert any other work at home profession) working away at the interwebs like so many others before me and amongst me. Big dreams here. But seriously, there is a desire there. Not just to be worry free and have endless hours of free time but to do something on my time, my way and get there on my own even if by trial and error. A little backstory here. Do I have a profession that I have worked and succeeded at. Yes absolutely. Is there still opportunity and years left in my field for continued growth and financial potential. Yes again. But here's the big one.. the one you hear so many times at real life and after school special graduation speeches, is it something I am passionate about, wake up wanting to go to work, and believe is the reason I was put here to do... sadly-truly-flat-out no.
I wish it was easy enough to just quit and start anew. If this was 10 years ago, sure. I could quit and not do a thing if that was what I was aiming for. But we're responsible adults here and I am happy and proud to contribute to my family's financial well being and success. Could I take a step back and tighten up the homestead if that was what was required as a SAHM. Yes I would, but right now it's just not in the books for us. What I hope though is, FT job or not, although married with a toddler and planning for another bundle, that even with all that chaos, I can still dream big and try the things that I scoffed at in years past and never thought I had in me. I tell myself, if I could travel back 10 years, oh the things I'd tell my younger self, but we all know how that goes. I doubt I would take that advice and utilize it. This is life, you live and learn and when it makes sense, you'll do it and it will come from the heart. That doesn't mean I will find success and happiness in my attempted endeavors, but hey at least I tried. Years from now I can look back and I won't have reason to say, I wish I did this or that.
So today, I am doing just that. I'm caffeinated, well rested and I have my DSLR in tow. I'm going to drop all of the typical things I would have done on a day off and I'm going to play photographer. I don't know what I'll find out there but it's worth taking a look.
Wishing myself luck here at another attempt at grabbing life by the bullhorns.
Have you had a similar awakening? Were you able to find a healthy balance?
Wishing us all luck, success and well being.
Happy Monday!
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